Busy busy Busy...
Keep myself busy wif lots & lots of things...today going shopping at Orchard with my colleagues...hope I can get something for myself...haha...
Maybe time is the best cure to everything...so i decided to concentrate on my BTT...den my FTT & driving test...if i have more time i'll take up sailing or windsurfing etc to keep myself occupied so tt i won't realise his absence...
Talk abt him again...I should just give up & keep quiet...let us all forget abt wad happened...but I talk over to ying2 & she told me I should sit down & have a good talk with him...she make me feel that ending it just like tt is a waste & tt we shouldn't just end things so fast without thinking clearly what we really want...she didn't want me to regret for not making the right decision...
So i decided to wait for him to make his first move...to c what he really wants...& mayb ask him out for a dinner to discuss abt our problem...
Thursday, March 30, 2006
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
Hmmmm... ...
More personal space...more time...more family get-together...
Yesterday went shopping at TM & CS for awhile after work...took joanna's advice on how to take care of our skin & steps to hydrate the skin...heex...so went to missha and bought to facial mask to try out...not bad lehz...haha...pamper myself once in awhile...so relaxing yesterday...I even fell asleep while doing the facial...lol...
I was so worried yesterday nitex...so scared I'll think too much & den have insomnia again...luckily I had a nice sleep last nitex...
Today after work going to go jogging with daddy, I think dad aims to run 5km...hmmmm...I just have to try den...so long nv exercise or run liao...heex...I think best way to forget ur worries is to keep urself busy wif other things...& exercise seems to be a nice activity...heex...den can learn frm minhuey's healthy lifestyle...haha...so I'll also hab a healthy lifestyle...lol...jiayou jiayou...
More personal space...more time...more family get-together...
Yesterday went shopping at TM & CS for awhile after work...took joanna's advice on how to take care of our skin & steps to hydrate the skin...heex...so went to missha and bought to facial mask to try out...not bad lehz...haha...pamper myself once in awhile...so relaxing yesterday...I even fell asleep while doing the facial...lol...
I was so worried yesterday nitex...so scared I'll think too much & den have insomnia again...luckily I had a nice sleep last nitex...
Today after work going to go jogging with daddy, I think dad aims to run 5km...hmmmm...I just have to try den...so long nv exercise or run liao...heex...I think best way to forget ur worries is to keep urself busy wif other things...& exercise seems to be a nice activity...heex...den can learn frm minhuey's healthy lifestyle...haha...so I'll also hab a healthy lifestyle...lol...jiayou jiayou...
Tuesday, March 21, 2006
Well...we've discussed abt our relationship once again...
But we still met the same problem...he said no matter how hard he tried or how much time I'm willing to give him...he just can't treat me as a gf...I dun blame him for tt...I guess it's just because we knew each other for such a long time liao...den all the while we were good & close frens...
Actually last night I was very worried before he told me how he was feeling these days...but after he told me everything...I regreted for asking him wad he was thinking cuz I sort of guessed wad he was thinking...running away the problem was wad I wanted to do last night...Instead of discussing it with him for solutions...I gave an excuse saying that I was very tired and would want to rest early...I was running away! Throughout the night, I couldn't sleep at all...I woke up every half or an hour...looking at the time...hoping it's dawn soon...& the nightmare would just go away...
After thinking for some time...I decided that I should respect his decision...we should separate for some time & calm down...follow the heart...see where it'll lead us to...
I hope the days without him won't be so lonely & I can continue to lead my life the way I want it to be... ...
I wish u happiness always...
But we still met the same problem...he said no matter how hard he tried or how much time I'm willing to give him...he just can't treat me as a gf...I dun blame him for tt...I guess it's just because we knew each other for such a long time liao...den all the while we were good & close frens...
Actually last night I was very worried before he told me how he was feeling these days...but after he told me everything...I regreted for asking him wad he was thinking cuz I sort of guessed wad he was thinking...running away the problem was wad I wanted to do last night...Instead of discussing it with him for solutions...I gave an excuse saying that I was very tired and would want to rest early...I was running away! Throughout the night, I couldn't sleep at all...I woke up every half or an hour...looking at the time...hoping it's dawn soon...& the nightmare would just go away...
After thinking for some time...I decided that I should respect his decision...we should separate for some time & calm down...follow the heart...see where it'll lead us to...
I hope the days without him won't be so lonely & I can continue to lead my life the way I want it to be... ...
I wish u happiness always...
Monday, March 20, 2006
Wah...again so long nv blog liaoz...I think i muz start blogging liao lor...
Think I got to ask Chin, von & jas to help me to make my blog more interesting wif new blog skins etc...lol...think I'm really quite outdated liao...haha...
Blogging is 1 of the best ways to keep u connected to ur frens let them noe how have u been doing these days & of cuz keep u updated wif all the happenings...express urself in ur blog etc...
hmmm...
Last yr after Prelims till now it's like 6 mths since I last blog...lots of things happened lor...well...I mugged for 1++ mth to nearly 2 mths...den finally end of A lvl!!! So happy!!! & went for the grad nitex at Ritz Carlton wif my beloved class 35/04...though we always got small disagreement now & den wif the rest...but I was very happy to be wif my 'family'...my son - chin, daughter - von, papa - kim, sis - gayeong & munting...& of cuz not to forget meiqi & junwei etc...Den I slack all the way in December...heex...spent my time going for yau qwee eating, Kboxing & shopping...b4 i finally decided to find a job...
At WORK...
so now currently working in a company near expo...doing some admin stuffs & things like tt...haizzzzz...working dun seem to be very fun here...dun like the job...dun like the management...But I like my colleagues here lots...sad thing is most of them r leaving the company for another job lor...guess I'm going to miss them all...haizzzz...the fun & laughter is going to be gone soon...& wad is left here is juz the few of us...me, kailing, michelle & minhuey...YW & KK...quite sad hor...1st time I c so many ppl leaving a dept at the same time lor...haizzzzz...
AT HOME...
Famiy ties between the family seems to be better these days...esp me & my cousins...but it's sad to say tt's after my grandpa's death...thinking back...grandpa passed away for nearly 2 weeks liao...he left us all...without bidding us good-bye...but grandpa also made us closer to each other...maybe not for my dad & uncles...but it's true for me & my cousins...hope we will hab our Kbox session soon...The pain seem to be less for us - the grandchildren but not for my grandma & aunts...2nd aunt missed grandpa so much tt now she's in hospital due to depression...Ppl seem to noe the importance of someone after he or she is gone...or is it that ppl r just not good in expressing their feeling for others??
MYSELF...
Missed my frens so much...all my TJ frens...how I wish I'm still schooling...crapping and laughing wif them...BUT all I can do is to WISH...
Gayeong had left for Korea to study...missed her so much these days...but seldom c her online or wad...haizzzz...juz received may's email tt she's leaving for Canada...she's migrating dere...another fren is leaving Singapore...haizzzz...others like Mich & KL wanna go abroad to study veterinary science...hoping to get a scholarship...for me leh...without scholarship also can't go abroad...plus i'm not independent enough...plus i'll miss the food in Singapore etc...most importantly I'll miss my family, frens & him...haizzzz...so i decided not to think abt leaving Singapore for studies...
It's been a mth liao...everything seems to be smooth for us at 1st...I dunno...we seem to be spending less time together these days...less on phone...less smses...he seems to be very tired these days...maybe cuz he's very busy wif his duties & stuffs...plus he's very worried abt his mum for the past few days...he's been quite quiet these days too...dun wanna speak much...he said he has been thinking alot... Most of the time I'm doing the talking...he's listening...of cuz I enjoyed talking alot...But I really wanna hear him talk...so tt I can noe him better...den always guessing wad's on his mind...wanna share his worries...but sometimes I'm like locked outside...he didn't want to open up his heart...perhaps...he needs more time...or should I say...we need more time...both of us need to work together to get things sort out... =)
Think I got to ask Chin, von & jas to help me to make my blog more interesting wif new blog skins etc...lol...think I'm really quite outdated liao...haha...
Blogging is 1 of the best ways to keep u connected to ur frens let them noe how have u been doing these days & of cuz keep u updated wif all the happenings...express urself in ur blog etc...
hmmm...
Last yr after Prelims till now it's like 6 mths since I last blog...lots of things happened lor...well...I mugged for 1++ mth to nearly 2 mths...den finally end of A lvl!!! So happy!!! & went for the grad nitex at Ritz Carlton wif my beloved class 35/04...though we always got small disagreement now & den wif the rest...but I was very happy to be wif my 'family'...my son - chin, daughter - von, papa - kim, sis - gayeong & munting...& of cuz not to forget meiqi & junwei etc...Den I slack all the way in December...heex...spent my time going for yau qwee eating, Kboxing & shopping...b4 i finally decided to find a job...
At WORK...
so now currently working in a company near expo...doing some admin stuffs & things like tt...haizzzzz...working dun seem to be very fun here...dun like the job...dun like the management...But I like my colleagues here lots...sad thing is most of them r leaving the company for another job lor...guess I'm going to miss them all...haizzzz...the fun & laughter is going to be gone soon...& wad is left here is juz the few of us...me, kailing, michelle & minhuey...YW & KK...quite sad hor...1st time I c so many ppl leaving a dept at the same time lor...haizzzzz...
AT HOME...
Famiy ties between the family seems to be better these days...esp me & my cousins...but it's sad to say tt's after my grandpa's death...thinking back...grandpa passed away for nearly 2 weeks liao...he left us all...without bidding us good-bye...but grandpa also made us closer to each other...maybe not for my dad & uncles...but it's true for me & my cousins...hope we will hab our Kbox session soon...The pain seem to be less for us - the grandchildren but not for my grandma & aunts...2nd aunt missed grandpa so much tt now she's in hospital due to depression...Ppl seem to noe the importance of someone after he or she is gone...or is it that ppl r just not good in expressing their feeling for others??
MYSELF...
Missed my frens so much...all my TJ frens...how I wish I'm still schooling...crapping and laughing wif them...BUT all I can do is to WISH...
Gayeong had left for Korea to study...missed her so much these days...but seldom c her online or wad...haizzzz...juz received may's email tt she's leaving for Canada...she's migrating dere...another fren is leaving Singapore...haizzzz...others like Mich & KL wanna go abroad to study veterinary science...hoping to get a scholarship...for me leh...without scholarship also can't go abroad...plus i'm not independent enough...plus i'll miss the food in Singapore etc...most importantly I'll miss my family, frens & him...haizzzz...so i decided not to think abt leaving Singapore for studies...
It's been a mth liao...everything seems to be smooth for us at 1st...I dunno...we seem to be spending less time together these days...less on phone...less smses...he seems to be very tired these days...maybe cuz he's very busy wif his duties & stuffs...plus he's very worried abt his mum for the past few days...he's been quite quiet these days too...dun wanna speak much...he said he has been thinking alot... Most of the time I'm doing the talking...he's listening...of cuz I enjoyed talking alot...But I really wanna hear him talk...so tt I can noe him better...den always guessing wad's on his mind...wanna share his worries...but sometimes I'm like locked outside...he didn't want to open up his heart...perhaps...he needs more time...or should I say...we need more time...both of us need to work together to get things sort out... =)
A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows;
Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last;
To feel that love, it makes you sigh, To have it leave, you'd rather die;
You hope you've found that special rose, 'Cause you love and care for the one you chose
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